Posts tagged lonely

I gave you life in a time when you wished of none. 

I gave you strength in your moments of weakness.

I gave you hopes and dreams far beyond what

You’d imagined for yourself. 

I gave you love,tenderness,sweet kisses.

I was pure to you.

I was yours.

But…

In return of all of this 

You gave me pain.

You gave me sin.

You gave me hate.

I got nothing.

Sadness.

Loneliness.

Sin.

Betrayal.  

Hate.

Nothing but heart ache.

I can only imagine what it would be like. Just as I type this, I can see it in my mind; Coldness throughout the room, music sheets, old pizza boxes, and a guitar- all scattered around the room. The smell of old socks, old food, and fresh wild flowers fills the room. I can imagine you sitting on the floor all cross legged with your guitar in one hand while pitching a tune with the other, then asking me if it would work and I would simply reply with a modest grin. The room would be immersed with music while old vintage curtains sway near the open window. You would leave the french doors open so the stray cat can keep warm from the harsh winter cold. You’d sit up against the wall after your legs went numb and Peel the old paint off the wall; Thinking of another tune or lyric to make me grin again.

if only…..

I don’t know who you are

But I know you need my help

I wish I wasn’t so far so I could embrace you

I know all you want is what is impossible

I know what you fear can not be destroyed

I hope one day

You want will become nothing more than reality

But you lurk in the shadows with no help

I wish you were here

Near and with no fear

To guide me

 For I am the one who truly needs the help

-Elizakc (me)